Saturday, April 19, 2014

Nightfall

I love Melbourne so much it hurts.

The city is at its most beautiful at the crux of nightfall.

Lights flicker on, stars appear.

And people become more free. 

At this time, when I'm walking down the crowded streets alone, what hurts more is that there's no one to share this beauty with. 

If there was someone here, we could walk down these streets side by side. 

Left, right, left. 

We wouldn't speak a word, I think. Instead, our fingers could bump into each other every so often, like a passage of silent understanding. 

Once in awhile, we could turn to look at each other and smile. 

I would pause and notice that he hadn't shaved this morning. 

He would pause to count the number of flickering lights reflected in my eyes. 

Occasionally we could stop altogether and simply stare at the people walking past. 

There might be a busker playing a sad love song. 

My eyes might suddenly become watery.

I would turn and begin to whisper, "Isn't this just so..."

But he would stop me with a soft laugh and a grin of understanding.

"I know," His eye crinkles would say. 

"I feel this way everyday too."

Friday, January 10, 2014

New Year's Resolution

Stop hiding in my comfort zone like a little bitch.

Get out there.

You're not a kid anymore.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

The tree outside my room has almost obscured my window.

For some reason, this makes me irrevocably sad.

Monday, August 26, 2013

Tender is the night

Lights in the city never go out.

During the night, everything in my empty apartment is awash with a stale fluorescent haze. I don't like turning the lights on. I loathe that disgustingly warm glow. It always pierces through the darkness and ruins the night's natural composure.

Sometimes it feels good to drown in the darkness and let it hide those thoughts you would never utter aloud otherwise. The night must collect a lot of secrets and tears and silent sufferings. Perhaps that's why it's so good at comforting you. It's had many lovers after all.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

after awhile

"
after awhile

you learn the subtle difference between 
holding a hand
and chaining a soul

after awhile

you learn to build your roads on today 
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

after awhile

you learn to plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

"

Tuesday, April 30, 2013